ratti pillo loves you always.

I haven't updated in a while. I've been busy at work, or unmotivated to write (which I should get out of, since I will be writing for the company). I've been toying around with lots of ideas for what I would like to write, but I'm not yet inspired to actually start taking notes. I guess it's due to the lack of knowledge about the subject; tea. Still so much to learn! I want to have the facts rolling off my tongue like some sort of demented tea robot.

One thing I've been dwelling on is the idea of time. I went to visit Stephanie in DC, which is always a fun, this past weekend. It felt like I had just been there, even though it was back in November when Megha and I last visited. I love DC-and northern Virginia. I think it might be my second favorite metro area outside of NY. We went out as usual- to Dupont Circle for one of her friend's birthday gatherings at this fun pool hall/sports bar (lots of people our age, cuties, pool, etc etc) and then headed to Georgetown for her co-workers birthday, at this club that played allright music, and where I spent 51 dollars on shots. Lets just say the ride back on the Metro was hell.

Anyway-Time. I feel like the year has gone by so quickly. I went to Rutgers last night to see the APO talent show. I haven't been out of school that long, but everything felt so foreign to me- for crying out loud I got lost getting to the Busch Student Center. (AND they put a Burger King where the Wendy's was! WHOA! ). I got to see Suesie, which is always a treat. While we were talking, I realized I hadn't seen her since she moved out of the apartment early May. We correspond semi-regularly through the mail, so I didn't feel like I had lost in touch with her-it was just weird that I hadn't seen her in such a long time, but good that we were able to chat away like it any other night in the attic of 110.

I also felt sort-of grownup. I showed up in a blazer,, in the clothes I wore to work. I'm usually very casual, but yesterday I was wearing a button up, leather flats, and a blazer, with my new amazing bag from Express I bought this weekend. I felt subdued in demeaner, and much older than everyone there. I was thinking about how I used to act in APO- loud, slightly obnoxious (i'm still obnoxious), etc. Now, I can't imagine me acting that way. I mean, I'm not a total bore; maybe it was the lack of energy from working.

Working. I was thinking about how nice it was back in school when I could stay up until 3am working on some paper, reading, watching tv, and get up by nine the next day. And how there was room for naps in my day. I miss napping.

At Stephanie's we talked about how weird it was that the teenagers tramping about the National Mall were born in the 90s, and not in the 80s. We reminisced about the wild times we had in the Mid Atlantic last summer. Last summer. Felt like yesterday. It occured to me that this summer would be 2 years since Stephanie's moved down to VA. I have been dating Nick for six months. My birthday is coming up, and a year ago during my 23rd birthday I was all over the place. I looked at old pictures while I was uploading our pics from the weekend-I feel so different from the girl I saw in those pics from May, June, July, August. I was having a lot of fun, but hung up on such dumb shit- like the Bro and I was lazy in searching for a job.

I'm not totally different, of course. But I feel like I've matured within the past months. I don't know if i has anything to do with getting this new job (the commute sucks), being so happy with Nick (I AM! oh, that's such a fun, fresh, different, awesome relationship! fer serious! ), getting to see friends (even though I don't see some nearly as often as I would like), etc etc. I don't know.

It's interesting that time has gone by, enough time that I can sense a change in myself, but it hasn't felt like it's flown by, per se; I still feel like have time to do all the things I still want to do, and ought to do.

On a side note, I am watching Lost. I feel like every other episode ends with this dumb ukelelee feel-good music montage of everyone sharing and caring that they aren't on an effing island with crazies and big ole clouds of smoke that eat people.

Things I'm Looking Forward to in the Next Couple of Days:
-staying over Nick's tomorrow (shorter commute for Friday morning!)
-seeing Kyu and various others on Friday night!
-New episode of The Office tomorrow night ! (I'm going to kill Jim Halpern-!!?!?! can't wait. haha)
-Family time on Saturday- my cousin's surprise bday party
-Easter tea with Mommy (and perhaps some new accessories)
-the wholesale reps will be in the office next wednesday (company!)

okay, gnite.